| Music |
[May. 10th, 2005|01:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Don't Funk With My Heart" - Black Eyed Peas | ] |
Lately I've been listening to what most people would think as being one of the strangest mixes of music possible. Theres my normal gangsta rap, which I'm leaning towards more old school this month, mostly Notorious BIG. Then you have my obsession with Linkin Park's first LP that I keep listening to. That really all normal for me but this is where it gets strange. I started listening to Tchikofski (sorry about spelling). How strange is that? Plus it doesn't help that being around my girlfriend I hear a bunch of girly music but some of it I actually like. For example, Home by Micheal Bublé. |
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| Crazy Little Mind |
[May. 1st, 2005|07:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Changes" - Tupac | ] |
If you know me well, which probably no one here does, then you'd know
that to keep my attention for more than 5 minutes takes an act of god.
Why, I'm not sure but it's the things I do when not paying attention
that are some what strange. I think I've said this a million times but
I love to write, and now it's not confined to stories, I wrote a poem a
couple days ago that sounded pretty cool and I wanted to share it. I
want to see if anyone can guess what the subject is.
( The Long Wish ) |
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| I like this one! |
[Apr. 30th, 2005|11:40 pm] |
I actually think this was one of my more true tests lol. I actuall got someone to watch me answer the questions so I'd answer them honestly and it came out just as I expected.
Your #1 Match: INFP
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The Idealist
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist. |
Your #2 Match: ISFP
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The Artist
You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).
You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.
Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.
Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.
You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer. |
Your #3 Match: ENFP
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The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. |
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| I am... |
[Apr. 12th, 2005|04:19 pm] |
You Are A Fir Tree |
You love anything beautiful, and you have extraordinary taste.
And while it's hard for you to trust, you care deeply for those close to you.
You are a social butterfly, and you have many friends.
You handle stress well - and you are a master at relaxing after a hard day.
Overall, you are modest, talented, unselfish, and very reliable. |
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| No Peace I Find |
[Apr. 8th, 2005|12:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ray Charles - Georgia On My Mind | ] |
Well I've been exploring different styles of music lately and my god have my views changed. I've found that I like the blues and classic R&B. The voices, the instruments, the base lines. Whats not to love!? Recently I've been listening to the same Ray Charles song, it's called Georgia On My Mind. I love it, the sound, the words even thought there aren't really that many. It also helps to know a little history behind the song, but I just love the sound of it. Theres the one verse that I love:
Other arms reach out to me
Other eyes smile tenderly
Still in peaceful dreams I see
The road leads back to you.
It could apply to so many things now as it did back then!
I'm in such a happy mood right now, I'm goign to go talk to random people! |
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| Drunk! |
[Apr. 3rd, 2005|04:50 am] |
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Okay this may be the massive amount of alcohol talking or the need for me to vent but I'm sick and tired of my stupid ways. I have an ex girlfriend, named Brittany and god knows she's probably reading this, but any ways. She is the first girl I ever told I loved and actualy meant it. Seriously I mean it with all my heart, I truely love this girl. We dated and broke up 2 years ago to this week. I still love her but I don't think she honestly understands that. Whenever I talk to her online we get along well, and then I see her and she ignores the fact that I'm even there! Like this week she came to the city this week and I was trying to be nice so I volunteered to be DD so that she could drink and have a good time at a city night club for the first time. I don't care what she does as long as she's happy. I've even told her that, so I turned my back while she was making out with some random guy, I'm not going to say it didn't bother me but what ever... as long as she's happy right. Well you know what, I was nice and did as I was told and was as nice to her and her friends as I could possibly be, but what do I get... nothing. I might as well have had a chain around my neck and a collar that says bitch on it because thats exactly what I was. So from now on, I'm not letting that happen, I did as she asked or said simply out of curtisy and a feeling that I was obligated to do so. Now it ends. I'm going to be nice and I'm still going to love her, but I'm going to have a bit more respect for myself and I'm not going to let myself be treated like that anymore! Brittany, if you're reading this you're probably super mad by now but you shouldn't be, I still love you but I just can't deal anymore, I'm not doing it anymore. I'm not going to hope anymore... |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 1st, 2005|02:17 pm] |
 | You scored as Latin. You should learn Latin! Though a dead language, Latin is present in science, history, English, and, of course, the Romance languages. Have fun with those declensions!
Latin | | 87% | Spanish | | 73% | French | | 67% | Arabic | | 53% | Chinese | | 53% | Japanese | | 47% | English | | 20% | </td>
What language should you learn?
created with QuizFarm.com |
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[Mar. 26th, 2005|08:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pensive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Breaker, Breaker" - GZA | ] |
Is this good or bad!?
Your Love Style is Agape |
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. |
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| How Old!? |
[Mar. 24th, 2005|01:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Deez Nutz" Dr. Dré - The Chronic | ] |
Okay, I know that I may not look my age.
You Are 16 Years Old |
16
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
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I can't be that young... lol, what ever it's only 2 years but in Canada, the difference between 16 and 18 is wheter or note I can drink!
I've also noticed that I'm provbably the only person here that never changes their icon. I think I've had the same one since I started here. I like to stay the same because eventually people will remember it and know who I am... lol! |
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| Death Note on a BREAK!!!!! |
[Mar. 23rd, 2005|07:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  infuriated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Let's Get Blown" Snoop Dogg - Rythme & Gangsta | ] |
What the hell is going on... they can't be on a break... the story has
to continue! I got to the 59th chapter and almost had a heart attac
when I found out I couldn't go any further.
Spoiler Warning! Chapter 35 and ^.
( You Know You're Mad Too! ) |
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| Randoms... |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|04:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Polaris - Jimmy Eat World | ] |
Well I'm off the night school... damn english.
I actually can't wait to get home though. I got to chapter 35 of Death Note and I'm oh so curious to see how this is going to go down. I actually kinda want Raito to just chill with Misa, but I'm sure that won't happen now. What evs. I guess I'll find out later.
Randoms: Any girl that comes up to you in the bar, club, mall or other situation in which you are strangers and you begin a conversation with. |
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| Death Note... Again! |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|09:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
Well I wasn't really feeling well today so I decided I should stay home and rest. Well that went out the window the minute I got out of bed. Now if you have ever suffered from a migrain then you know it can make you light sensitive. Let's just say I dosed up and did what I had been doing until 2:30 last night... catching up on Death Note.
I started reading it honestly only 2 days ago and I haven't been able to stop. I actually think I'm not even half done yet. I'm only on chapter 25. I'm not 100% sure how much is left but I'm enjoying every minute of it. I just love the character developement and it gets deeper and deeper the farther you go. Well I really need some rest. Looking at this computer screen is killing me. |
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| Icons! |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|08:58 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Dishwalla - Angels And Devils | ] |
Well here is my first attempt at Icons. I didn't add any words to them
because I'd rather people personalize them yourself if you like. Plus
anything I say wouldn't really sound too great. So check them out and
tell me what you think. Oh and I got all of these ones from Season 2
Episode 18 - Visitor. Mostly of Clark and Lana but some Chloe and Lex
too!
   
( Check out the rest! ) |
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| Dreams |
[Mar. 13th, 2005|01:18 am] |
Most people have them. We go to sleep at night and in the morning we remember bits and pieces of events that while they may feel like memories of events past are in fact fabrications of our mind. Sometimes they can scare you out of sleep, other times you're falling faster and faster towards a horrible end, and then there are the good dreams. The dreams where you are in utter bliss and nothing could ever get you down. YOu could be rich, in love, see family members who have passed, be famouse, important, a spy and fisherman, you name it, it'll probably make you so very happy.
But are all good dreams actually great? Have you ever had such a good dream that once you woke up you because disappointed and depressed because you knew that you'd never feel that way again. I'm just wondering, is this possible, because as of late I would rather be having nightmares than sweat dreams. |
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| Can't Do It Anymore |
[Mar. 11th, 2005|10:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jimmy Eat World - Work | ] |
Well I've been having a little trouble in school, I'm more bored than anything and that leads to me not paying attention and then falling behind. Which resulted in this shitty ass week that happened, but what ever, with the weekend brings new chances. Well everything was good until I got off work. I came home and we started discussing something, an earlier talk about of all things an extension cord for my mom. This is exactly how it went:
S.D. [Step Dad]: When I was looking through your room for the extension cord I found 16 pieces of dishes.
Laine: Okay what ever, I'll bring them up then...
S.D. [Raised Voice]: Fine but tell me why there was one in your closet.
Laine: Why were you even going through my room I told you I didn't have the damn thing... Why would I need an extension cord?
Mom: Why would you go into his closet Roy?
[I start walking down the stairs]
Laine: Fine what ever I'll go and get them right now.
S.D. Damnit kid I'm...
[My step dad fakes throwing something at me.]
Laine: What are you going to do... you gonna throw that at me... fucking do it. Just do it, come on.
To say the least it was a fight over the stupidest little thing but I'm a very private person and don't even leave my own friends in my room, never mind letting my step dad look through my room. I was just fucking sick and tiered of his bull shit, we fight all the time because he's not a big fallower of new trends, he still think about the way he was raised on the farm. My mom always has to defend me but when he acted as though he was going to throw something at me I didn't give a shit anymore... I wanted him to hit me... he'd only do it once I could tell you that. I didn't add the part when he came down staires after me, mainly because it was long and I ignored everything he said but it was something about disrespecting him in his own house. Which I honestly don't believe I did. I defended myself from an attack on my privacy and from physical assault.
You know what, if you get past all the arguing and what have you me and Roy can kinda get a long for short periods of time but seriously he pisses me off about almost anything, even things that don't consern him. Like this absence thing from school. He always bitches about my attendence. Some days I just want to turn around and tell hime to fuck off and let me worry about it. If anything ever happened to my mom. I'd have to find somewhere else to live because honestly I don't think I'd be able to live with him. The worst part of this whole thing is that now I'm sitting on my computer with a bottle of Canadian Club Whiskey and a glass drinking because I'm all stressed out about this... even more sad than that, I know that it's an extremely bad habit to get into, especially when alchoholisme runs in the familly. |
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| Are You That Ignorant!? |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|08:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | frustrated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | From Scratch - The Game | ] |
Okay, where do I start? I'm a canadian, and most of you probably don't know about the bill that is going to the parlament. Right now our government is trying to pass a bill redefining marriage to include same sex marrages. So far all I've heard is a bunch of people bitching about it.
I was watching the national news and they were talking to and showing clips from a Muslim point of view. All I heard was that they're against it because their religion says it's a moral disease and that they do not want the bill to pass. I thought they were all crazy. Not because of their religion but because they seem to believe that their religion is obviously the only right one.I'm not talking about all muslim people because I'm not so narrow minded that I think all muslims believe the same thing. These people on the news where saying that their god doesn't believe in it so why should we let this pass. Thats the most narrow minded statement I've ever heard! I'm not saying I'm perfect and hell who's to say my religion is any better, my pope put out a hit on the queen of england a century or 2 ago. At least I'm open minded enough to see the range of people that this bill would effect.
Now I'm not a homosexual, but I do believe that they have the RIGHT to the same privleges as the rest of us. Why shouldn't they? Because GOD says so? Why would he let us chose then, why would he let so many of the CHILDREN he loves make the so called WRONG dicision and go to hell? You know what, if you're that addament about the same sex marriage thing, why not let all these SINNERS go to hell then? I just can't undersatnd why people can't just mind their own fucking bussiness and leave these people alone!
I'm sorry but religion has no place in government.
I find it mind boggling that these people who are complaining about not being able to wear there religious trinkits and doodads, are now tell the government to take away the rights of other people. What gives them the right. If you can't tell this really frustrates me to no end. The fact of the matter is, it's a RIGHT to make your own decisions in life, no one can take that away from you, not the government, not religious leaders and sure as hell not GOD(s). In the same way we could turn this whole thing around and tell people they nolonger have the right to practice their religions. I have to go before my unbelievably bad blood pressure gets worse. |
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| Two More Days |
[Jan. 24th, 2005|03:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hyper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dr. Dré - The Watcher | ] |
Well today was the first day I'd been at school in the past 6 days and man did I ever not want to be there. It was just so boring and not fun. I've already written my exams so I don't see why we have to attend class still. This is just stupid. IT doesn't matter anyways, since there are only classes until wendsday.
Thank god for selective hearing. I've now managed to block out anything that sounds like a ringing phone or my mom talking. I was going to go crazy because for some reason, when my mother talks on the phone her voice gets twice as loud even though she doesn't have to speak any louder. The phone still rings off the hook too so I'm just ignoring everything now. My grandfather and my Uncle came to the city this weekend too, to see my mom and I spend saturday with my grandpa. Again I spent a lot of that time in the basement because seeing them there just made the reality of my moms situation set in that much more. At this point I'm still perfering ignorance to reality.
In other news I've for some reason become hell bent on two things. One, I really want to write a fanfiction for Smallville. I've had this idea for so long and I just need to get my idea's to paper... or even better, data! The second thing being, I really want my tax money so I can buy a guitar! An acoustic though so I can walk around with it playing music! Lol.... I just love the idea of being able to sit down somewhere and just pull out my guitar and play. I love it! I'm even excited... the only thing is I don't actually know how to play! Lol. So I'm just going to teach myself by way of tabs.
Wish me luck! And I hope you buy my album! |
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| Just... A Pawn... |
[Jan. 19th, 2005|12:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Game - The Documentary | ] |
Well life has been life... Times kinda suck right now... I wanna write so bad but just can't seem to find the time... The only writting I've mangaed to get done is on my english exam where my english teacher let me go wild with my story. English seems to be the only subject where they'll let you get really creative with your subject. I also went places I've never been in writting... I actually wrote my story from the protaganists point of view... it was hard at first but I got past that and it ended up being really good... I actually wish I could get it back and maybe expand apon it, but first I have so many pieces I want... no need to get done. I've been leaving them for so long that I'm almost giving up. I can't give up now though... I've come so far that if I gave up on this, I'd never be able to finish anything... but I fear that if I rush them they won't turn out the way I planned.
To mty dismay the phone continues to ring off the hook and family is starting to make plans to come visit... lol but not until the tempurature raises past at the very least -20 degres C. Lately the weather has been anywhere from -40 to -50 degs. C (to you americans thats -40 to -58 degs. F.). I'm used to the cold like my mother and my step-dad but this isn't that great... cause myself and my step dad caught colds and we couldn't and I still can't really spend time around my mom because for the next 6 months we have to try our hardest not to make her sick. With her surgery and the Kemo coming it's not good for her to be sick.
Lately I find myself not being able to find much energy to do anything at all. School, work, friends... they all seem to have lost their appeal. Even the bar doesn't sound that fun. I'm not sure what it is. I'm constantly finding myself imagining stories and characters and running through stories during class or at work. Even when I'm online or just chilling in my basement watching T.V. Motivation just seems to be in short suply. I have all these dreams but it seems that they're slowly being ripped from my fingers. I hope to god this doesn't last long cause now is not the time to stop everything... I don't want to ruin my own life. |
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